birthday plans switched because it's not convenient for OTHER people.

i had asked the lady who takes care of my finances if i could take a trip to mexico this year at the beginning of this year but now she tells me that i need to take a trip there NEXT year. her reason was because i just took a trip to boston last year. i wanted to take a trip for my FORTIETH BIRTHDAY to the same place i was born. it's not as significant if i wait for next year. when brian took care of my money, I WAS ABLE TO TAKE A TRIP EVERY YEAR- so don't give me that bullshit. brian ALSO wouldn't complain when i'd contact him.. unlike amy, who told me that she was gonna start charging me for our conversations. AREN'T YOU ALREADY GETTING PAID WITH MY MONEY THE WAY IT IS? i recommend that YOU get a NEW job which will work more with what's more convenient for you- might i suggest burger king or mcdonalds? the job of being my trustee apparently inconveniences you from working helpfully to me. the only thing she has correct so far is the greedy attitude, who conveniently discloses the truth in her own version to accomodate her agenda and needs. this makes me appreciate how brian worked with me as opposed to amy. he's out having the time of his life in chicago more than likely. i can't hate on him for living his life. i just hate on these people trying to PREVENT me from living MY life the way I want (ESPECIALLY family- who should be aware of the shit i've been through just to live MY damn life). amy tried to make it seem as if i was spending a lot of money, so we'll have to save for next year to take a trip. i barely spend any money. COULD IT BE SOMEONE ELSE BUYING HAIR PRODUCTS WITH MY MONEY FOR HER SALON? one day a while ago when i was looking at the expenses of my trust- i seen paul mitchell products and other hair products on my listing of expenses- I DON'T USE HAIR SALON PRODUCTS ON MY HAIR. i went to brian and asked him about it, from then on- i didn't see anymore. amy is probably buying products for the salon amanda works at on MY WALLET. THIS MONEY IS SUPPOSED TO LAST A LIFETIME AND I DON'T HAVE ANY OTHER FUCKING WAY OF GETTING MONEY RIGHT NOW. WAS AMANDA OR AMY IN THE CAR WITH ME WHEN TIM WAS DRIVING DRUNK? DID THEY HAVE TO LIE SIX MONTHS IN A DAMN COMA? DID THEY HAVE TO SIT IN A DAMN ELECTRIC WHEELCHAIR FOR AT LEAST 15 YEARS BECAUSE IT WASN'T CONVENIENT FOR EVERYONE ELSE FOR THEM TO WALK? that's what i thought. the day ANYONE can TRUTHFULLY say they went through even half the shit i have in life- MAYBE WHAT THEY SAY WILL ACTUALLY FUCKIN MATTER. if your salon is so good- you shouldn't need to steal from your own damn family to pay for the products which help to keep it running. the interview that i was supposed to have on friday changed days, so i at least have a little more time to prepare for it. i'm still going to an interview today later.